had an enjoyable day with amy love yesterday.
the shopping line was crazy in aero.
thank god i got 2 sweaters from AE.
but i have this horrible feeling that someone else is going to have the same thing.
that'll suck a lot ;[
it was such a happy day throughout the time.
but it was so weird how a phonecall to joey just brought our mood down.
we were done with shopping and thinking of where to eat.
i called joey to check up on her in SI Mall to find out she was in Fifth Ave.
In fifth ave? me and amy were just there in the morning.
she should of came with us.
But maybe she was out with her family shopping.
i was going to ask her to go out to eat with us, but i decided to ask her what she was doing there.
"im going to the movies."
"oh."
perhaps she just brought my mood down at that moment.
what, is she going to see New Moon?
Had i NOT asked her to go to see new moon with me?
"oh, okay then. ill talk to you next time."
"why. what is it? tell me."
"nothing. nevermind. byes."
Right now, im wondering to myself,
when exactly was the last time the three of us spent time together outside?
its so ironic- wait, i don't even know if ironic is the best way to describe it,
how i decided to have a talk with her and thought that maybe this will bring us back together.
how stupid i was.
i lost her already. why don't i just freaken get it?
I didn't even think it was that bad until i went on facebook. oh, how facebook can come to ruin your mood.
i found out joey had went to SI Mall with her new friends.
she had also went to the movies with her new friends.
i asked her to go both places with me and amy, but she chose them.
her freaken new friends.
and im sure she had a lot of fun.
and yes, i am jealous. i am so freaking jealous i just want to give up on her.
because i finally come to decide that, really, im trying to hold onto something thats not even there anymore. what am i holding onto now? our sweet old memories. they're the past. right now, i am not even in joey's future. Her future revolves around her boyfriend and her new friends. oh, how fucking stupid i was to think that we will last forever. Because nothing lasts forever. and right now, we broke. like shattering glass, we broke. why do i even bother hurting myself to piece the glasses together to bring back something we use to have when all this time, the truth was, it'll never be the same again. what the hell am i thinking?
ROFL. reading back what i wrote, you'll probably think joey's my boyfriend or something.
no, she's not. shes my best frie- no. cross that out. she was a close friend i use to have.
Im tired.
tired of holding onto something thats not even there anymore.
i gave up. gave up the same way you gave up on me.
im done.
the shopping line was crazy in aero.
thank god i got 2 sweaters from AE.
but i have this horrible feeling that someone else is going to have the same thing.
that'll suck a lot ;[
it was such a happy day throughout the time.
but it was so weird how a phonecall to joey just brought our mood down.
we were done with shopping and thinking of where to eat.
i called joey to check up on her in SI Mall to find out she was in Fifth Ave.
In fifth ave? me and amy were just there in the morning.
she should of came with us.
But maybe she was out with her family shopping.
i was going to ask her to go out to eat with us, but i decided to ask her what she was doing there.
"im going to the movies."
"oh."
perhaps she just brought my mood down at that moment.
what, is she going to see New Moon?
Had i NOT asked her to go to see new moon with me?
"oh, okay then. ill talk to you next time."
"why. what is it? tell me."
"nothing. nevermind. byes."
Right now, im wondering to myself,
when exactly was the last time the three of us spent time together outside?
its so ironic- wait, i don't even know if ironic is the best way to describe it,
how i decided to have a talk with her and thought that maybe this will bring us back together.
how stupid i was.
i lost her already. why don't i just freaken get it?
I didn't even think it was that bad until i went on facebook. oh, how facebook can come to ruin your mood.
i found out joey had went to SI Mall with her new friends.
she had also went to the movies with her new friends.
i asked her to go both places with me and amy, but she chose them.
her freaken new friends.
and im sure she had a lot of fun.
and yes, i am jealous. i am so freaking jealous i just want to give up on her.
because i finally come to decide that, really, im trying to hold onto something thats not even there anymore. what am i holding onto now? our sweet old memories. they're the past. right now, i am not even in joey's future. Her future revolves around her boyfriend and her new friends. oh, how fucking stupid i was to think that we will last forever. Because nothing lasts forever. and right now, we broke. like shattering glass, we broke. why do i even bother hurting myself to piece the glasses together to bring back something we use to have when all this time, the truth was, it'll never be the same again. what the hell am i thinking?
ROFL. reading back what i wrote, you'll probably think joey's my boyfriend or something.
no, she's not. shes my best frie- no. cross that out. she was a close friend i use to have.
Im tired.
tired of holding onto something thats not even there anymore.
i gave up. gave up the same way you gave up on me.
im done.
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